Have you ever felt as if the entire world was closing in on you, and that every endeavor that you attempt in your life never reaches expectations? This is a common feeling among individuals suffering from Drug and or Alcohol addiction feels on a regular basis. “Why me?” “What did I do to deserve this burden?” “Am I ever going to be anything other than a waste of life?” You are not alone in asking yourself these questions. I myself have had all of these thoughts cross through my head. I am here to tell you that these feelings do not have to continue and that there is a way out. I want to stress to you that you are not alone and that all you need to do is ask for help. I understand that humility does not come easy and that it is the first required action in change. Understanding that my way may not always be the best way. It also may be that others will have to direct me on how to live my life in order for me to get back on the right path. Unfortunately we have to “surrender” in order to change.
“Surrender as defined by Dictionary.com means- to yield (something) to the possession or power of another; deliver up possession of on demand or under duress. This is an action that may be associated with weakness or lack of ability, but I can assure you it may be the most freeing and amazing action ever taken in one’s life. I implore you if you are feeling or thinking that there is no way out. If you are feeling one of the aforementioned thoughts to please give yourself a break and ask for HELP!
I have asked myself all of the above questions, and experienced the entire spectrum of thoughts and feelings associated with failure. I wanted to allow you to get to know a little of my life and maybe, if you are reading this and feeling any of these thoughts or know someone who is pass it along and let them know that there is help available. I could have chosen a lifetime of pain, misery, and doubt, but I made a decision to surrender and attempt something different. It was the best decision that I have ever made and has led me here to a new way of life, all as a result of “Surrendering”.
-Yours in Recovery